February 2012
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If you only knew what I just did for you… This is killing me inside. :’(
I wish you knew the whole story. I wish I could tell you what I know, but I can’t…It’s getting harder to do the right thing. He’s not making it any easier..
He gets under my skin, he knows how my mind works. I hate him for that.
I’m constantly making mistakes, and this would be my biggest. I don’t know what I was thinking… I hate myself for this. Might as well leave this town and start over some place far, far away from here.
Wow. I am a horrible person…
I’m starting to give up.
I don’t remember the last time I felt this alone.
Things just keep getting worse.
Life is just so full of awesome.
Muahahahaha >:)
He took a girl home tonight. I bet she’s prettier than me…definitely skinnier. I’m not surprised though, just disappointed.
I’ve never eaten that much food at once in my life. I can’t believe my stomach still hurts…three hours later. I need to start exercising tomorrow. I’m starting to feel fat again.
I wish it was warm out. I can’t wait to start wearing shorts. I’m scared to buy a bikini. I’ve never worn one before. I think it’s time I start getting my body ready for summer. :)
The kid ignores my text on Saturday and doesn’t show up at the club. I decided that I’m no longer texting him because what’s the point of wasting time on someone who isn’t willing to waste any time on me? Then he texts me at five this morning…while I’m at work. My assumptions are that he was drunk and it was a booty call. I’m going to leave things where...
Worst headache ever tonight. I’m surprised I haven’t overdosed on ibuprofen considering the amount I’ve taken.
Only two more days.
Today was better. Thankfully being at work helps me keep my mind off him. I’m hoping he’ll talk to me sometime soon…just so I can at least feel like there’s still interest. I’m not keeping my hopes up this time. I really don’t think things will work out. It’s my own fault, really. I guess we all make mistakes. Maybe I’ll actually learn from this one.
Proud of myself :) let’s hope I can keep this up…
I need to smarten up.
January 2012
37 posts
So. Fucking. Awesome. :)
I’m going to text him tomorrow. I haven’t talked to him since that night. I wish I remembered everything from those two nights…especially the parts with him..he says he wants to hang out again, I just don’t know anymore. I’ve been making too many mistakes lately. I don’t think I could handle another one..
A year and a half ago, I weighed 200lbs. I finally hit my goal weight of 135lbs yesterday. :) Now I just need to lose about fifteen more pounds, and tone up. I can’t wait to start working out.
Don’t get attached…
So much for “lesson learned”..
I bought a size 7 pair of shorts today…That sentence makes me so happy. I never, ever wear shorts, but I’ve finally lost enough weight that it doesn’t bother me anymore. Size 7? I don’t remember the last time I wore a size 7. Large is hardly ever an option anymore. Medium is more like it. Now I just need to keep going.
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You are really starting to annoy me.
As soon as it hit 12, my day went to shit. I’m praying to god my luck will change when I wake up…
Just because we’re not friends anymore, doesn’t mean I don’t miss you. I keep wanting to talk to you, but I’m pretty sure you don’t want to… I guess I can’t blame you.
Really happy for once. :)
I’ve had such a crazy last couple of months. Looking back it almost seems surreal, but I have to admit that it’s been the best time of my life. I love my best friend, with all of my heart. It hurts me when people say that she’s a bad influence in my life. She may be there when I make some of my bad choices, but she never influences my actions. If I chose to do something...
This snow is ruining my social life.
Yay :)
Skinny day :)
I finally talked to him tonight, and I couldn’t have asked for a better response. I’m so happy right now. Happier than I’ve been in a long time.
FUCK
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What an unhealthy obsession I’ve gotten myself into.
Fuck, not again :(
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I don’t know what to do.
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